2 songs

All men and women are born, live suffer and die; what distinguishes us one from another is our dreams, whether they be dreams about worldly or unworldly things, and what we do to make them come about... We do not choose to be born. We do not choose our parents. We do not choose our historical epoch, the country of our birth, or the immediate circumstances of our upbringing. We do not, most of us, choose to die; nor do we choose the time and conditions of our death. But within this realm of choicelessness, we do choose how we live.
--Joseph Epstein

How is the Youth Service like in other churches? What is the pastoral care like there? Why do you think people church hop?
I can honestly say that though out my teenage years, the number of times I attended the youth service at my church can be counted on one hand. Why is this so? Put it down to poor judgment or otherwise, I suppose that God intended it to be that way. If not for that period of time, I would not be the person I am today.
The cell group and ministry which one serves in play a big part in an individual’s walk with God. In know that for a fact because I am breathing proof that wrong decisions made by a church can screw up a person’s life.
I started serving in my current ministry at a very young age. I am probably the first to start at such an age. Due in part to this, I was in a different category from the rest of my peers.
First 3 cells which I was placed in were blessings to me. The friends I made were good influences and they helped make my teen years more bearable. God knows what a wreck I was outside of church. The 4th cell was my first adult cell. We were a small group and I found the fellowship warm. I was the youngest and Siew Ying was the only other girl in the cell, we bonded well and for that I am grateful. Sadly, due to the size of my cell, we were combined with another cell to form a larger one. This marked a turning point in my spiritual life.
My friend Belmont once said that junior college made him do a lot of thinking, and I can’t agree with him more. The years in SRJC were ones that I treasure and will not soon forget, however, my church life was more like a train on the wrong side of the tracks - waiting for doom to come crashing head on. Why do I say that?
The 5th cell I was in, I stuck out like a sore thumb and I could not fit in with the people there. Once again I was the youngest and things were made worse by the fact that the rest of the members were Chinese orientated. I am very ang mo pai, so that is one more area to be blamed. Believe me; I did my part in trying to fit in and what not. I made the effort but it takes two hands to clap. As time went by, I was gradually forgotten about and left behind. Of this cell, I will say no more, because I have nothing good to say about them. The experiences in that cell never fail to bring bitter tears to my eyes.
During that period of time, the only thing that kept me in my church was my ministry. If not for it and the people in it, I would now be in another church. That is for certain.
The 6th and current cell that I am in has played a huge part in my walk with God. To them I say a big thank you and God bless. Unfortunately, things have been put in motion and over them I have no power.
The only thing I can do is have faith that God is in control and pray that maybe one day He will bestow upon me the wisdom to understand why things are the way they are. Then again, would I really want to know?
The past week has a total wreck but returning to the house of God this morning changed every thing. I found myself feeling lighter and happier at the end of service and I am thankful for the message that was preached. Very timely, yes indeedie. I hope I remember the things I learnt today.

Today’s TKD training session saw the introduction of quite a few new people. Fulin’s cousin was one of them. He has never taken taekwondo before, so unlike Fulin, he will start at white. Mr. Fulin took tkd when he was younger, so he is going for the next grading as a blue belter. Anywayz, welcome to the gang Ian! ^-^

I have no idea if I will be able to blog for the next few days because my mathematics mock exam is on this coming Wednesday, and yes! You guessed right! I have not started studying yet. I also have to study for the other papers which will take place the week after next. Need to pray for soundness of mind xia~ Buah hahahahaha…

With that said, I just watched The Wedding Singer. Know the movie?
-takes a deep breath-
*big sigh*

Grow old with you - Adam Sandler
On the Wedding Singer soundtrack

Billy idol (speaking): good afternoon everyone. we're flying at 26,000 feet, moving Up to thirty thousand feet, and then we've got clear skies All the way to las vegas, and right now we're bringin you some in-flight Entertainment. one of our first-class passengers would like to sing you a song Inspired by one of our coach passenger, and since we let our first-class Passengers do pretty much whatever they want, here he is.

Robbie hart (singing):
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All i wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
I'll kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

I'll need you
I'll feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

-takes another deep breath-
*HUGE sigh*
Oh! I finally found the song I have been humming for the past 3 years!

Keeping The Dream Alive

From the Original Motion Picture Soundtrack, Say Anything
Performed by Freiheit with the London Symphony Orchestra, 1986

Tonight the rain is falling
Full of memories of people and places
And while the past is calling
In my fantasy I remember their faces

The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we have to try
The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive

I hear myself recalling
Things you said to me
The night it all started
And still the rain is falling
Makes me feel the way
I felt when we parted

The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we have to try
No need to hide no need to run
'Cause all the answers come one by one
The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive

I need you
I love you

The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive

The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we have to try
No need to hide no need to run
'Cause all the answers come one by one

The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we have to try
No need to hide no need to run
'Cause all the answers come one by one

The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive

The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive

The game will never be over

Familiar?
Keep smiling you all!
Cheers! ^-^

Can you hear my voice?

A goal is a dream with a deadline.
--Unknown

To Yilinn:
Happy Belated Birthday! ^-^
-big huge giant hugs-

To Yong Feng:
I have no idea how you are going to be able to read this but, Happy Birthday!!!!

To Yang Mui:
How was the wedding?
The traffic jam bad?
What time did it end?
Details! I want details!
Den maybe i can give some of them to my brother for his wedding.^-^
-chuckles-
oh! i haven started studying yet, everytime i pick up a set of notes or a study guide, i start to yawn...jiat lut~
How arh?
-cries out in anguish-
Hahaha...

To Siya:
I am rooting for you and you know who! Jia you ah! Go for him girl! He is a good choice!
-migumi laughter-
Since the mahjong date got cancelled today, when is the next one going to be?
I demand to be satisfied!
-evil laughter-

To Alfred:
How short is your hair now?
Did you change your hair style?
How much did it cost?
When you going to update?

To Parveen:
All hail the return of the camera whore!!!!
-more migumi laughter-

To Joshy Kor:
I haven hd to chance to watch the DVD yet. Sorry ah~ i think you will have to wait for quite a while before you can get it back. I think i will only get the chance to watch it after my UOL exams...patience is a virtue...sorry ah~

To Marcus:
Update! I command you to update your blogsite! Update!

To SRJCians:
Anyone wanna make a trip back to school?

Ok...till my next post~
Cheers!^-^

rEaLiTy

Sometimes dreams alter the course of an entire life.
--Judith Duerk

What shall I start with first?
–rubs head-

Saturday: To Mr. Chow's, Karen's and Pauline's homes.
The initial plans got screwed up during the week towards the date because of the clashing time tables of everyone who was able to make it. Then again, I should not be complaining coz everything turned out fine in the end. ^-^
Took the LRT for the first time that day. It reminds me of the train at the airport. Come to think of it...the whole area looks more like Sentosa or the Sahara...all the flora and fauna around...Heh~ Jill, Baolin, Desmond, Genevieve, Farah and I went to Mr. Chow’s house to bai nian. Ate a lot. Talked a lot. Watched Dodge Ball and xXx. We could have continued watching but we had to make a run for Karen’s house coz it was getting pretty late.
Karen’s house is in Pungol. So near Malaysia that handphone reception is extremely crappfied. Played Tai ti, Si ke puek and other games. Grand total gain: -$2.80. That is a whole lot better than losing 10 bucks. Haha… From there, the headless chicken took over and I made for home.
Ran home to change and make for Pauline’s place to eat dinner and help out with her steamboat bonanza. Wow, her house was very packed. The run there kinda busted my knee again. It is still hurting t the moment. Anyway, I had a good time making new friends and helping out. Glorified ‘waitress’ for the evening. Haha…

pAu: “hi sweetie, thanks so much for helping me out with the steamboat. and listening to my whining session yesterday. will miss ya leh very much. *muaks*”
No problemo Pau. Anytime. :) I will miss you too, if anything the situations have brought us closer, and that is something to be thankful for eh? ^-^

Sunday: The usual routine minus badminton/taekwondo.
CNY don have exercise session. Jiat lut ah~ Need to exercise more. Bring it on man! Wooohooo~ Can’t wait for the next training session. ^-^

Monday: Valentine’s Day + Nageb's extra IBM class.
We were supposed to bring notes for unit 1, 2 and 3. The blur child in me made me bring only Unit 1. -.=;;; I suffered for my folly, added to that the fact that I almost fell asleep during lesson is not a very good thing. But never the less, class ended earlier than expected. Rotted with Yang Mui and waited for time to pass because she had an appointment with her friend at a later time. Hope you had a good time Yang Mui!
Reality hit me again, that's why I reached home with a splitting headache and the dark clouds started to form around my head. My mood got very dark and it remained that way for another 12 odd hours. The flood gates opened. Vulgarities all over the place. Depression was the main order of the day I guess.
First time in my life that I spent 5 hours online. Was online chatting and surfing past 2am. Was very close to getting a huge slap from TKM. Better not do it again….have to cut down on internet time… for the sake of the bills and my studying.

Tuesday: Mahjong! Mahjong! Mahjong! Mahjong! And cell group.
Chu qi ala 7th day of the Lunar New Year ala Everyone’s birthday.
Happy Belated birthday to everyone!
Read the newspaper and felt reality punching me in the stomach.
Went to Siya’s place for a gathering. Yingz, Sheena, Adeline were there as well. Joyce was late. Siya’s Mum bought us lunch. Thanks Auntie!
The mahjong orgy was the best I have ever experienced to date. We played and talked/ joked all the way. Touching on topics from SRJC to the theory of losing. –migumi laughter- We did not play with money. This time round it was kind of sad that we did not play with money because I won quite a bit. When I won, I won big. I would go into the details of every game we played, then again, I think I would bore you to death. I brought along my PS2 games, but we were so caught u in our mahjong that we forgot all about the PS2, so I guess we will leave the games for Saturday. ^-^
I sure miss the lot. It would be real nice if we could have another gathering like this one soon.
Joyce bought roses for everyone of us. Thanks Joyce! I love the green rose! When you going to buy me another one? –migumi laughter-
We played for more than 5+ hours straight. Lost track of time we did and the sun set in the west. By that time, I was on the verge of being extremely late for cell group. Picked up my hand phone I did and rang Jeff did I. Told him I would be late for cell. The conversation with him went here and there and ended in him driving over to Siya’ place to pick me up. Had he not done so, I would have been very late. I was also on worship leading duty so being late would have been rather mean to Winnie. I had thoughts of blowing off cell to go to Joyce’s home for Lo Hey, the responsible person in me won in the end. That’s why I called Jeff.
Worship leading was good. The word made me blur but over all the meeting was good. Thorny issues were faced and discussed.
Overall, the positive things of the day won.

Wednesday: Everyone out of the house except me. TKD training in the evening.
TKM and YKM went out for lunch. Daddy went to work. That left me all alone in the house.
What was I supposed to do? Study.
What did I do? Watch television, played computer, listened to music, tried to study. Did manage to study but ended up dozing off. -.-;;; I also hit my head in the morning. Lost my memory and was in a daze for quite a while. Talked weird too. Heh~ opppz…did I forget anything else for that day?
TKD was good. I miss not having training. I get to have fun and work out at the same time. What could be more fun? Sadly, I strained my right leg again…now it hurts…gosh… I might need to go for faith healing…haha~

-‘Seriousness’ is come-

Reality is getting me down.
On Tuesday, there was an article in the newspaper stating that a man had killed an infant and only got 4 months of jail for his ‘accident’. The total injustice of the matter brought tears to my eyes and the switch was force on.
If 4 months is given for the death of a child, does killing an elderly person mean that you would have life imprisonment?
During the last few days, other issues had been getting to me and I was rather pissed off by the happenings not to mention the people who caused all the crap to happen. My memories were also coming back to haunt me. Add them to the foreboding feeling I had been having and you would have a very depressed and morbid thinking young lady. If I were to voice my inner thoughts of that period, I would probably be sent to S.I.M.H. by my parents or any of my friends.
My dreams are so vivid.
Resulting in my inability to tell the difference between what is created in my mind and can be touched.
I sometimes wish they were my reality instead of the one I wake up to.
I ask, asked and am still asking questions.
There are no answers to them.
Who has the answers?
What makes them so smart as to be able to have the answers?
The world is so confusing and I don’t understand why certain things happen.
Is knowledge really power?
Does having information about certain things really give one power?
What do you do when information is forced down your throat?
You would love to do something about the situation(s), but you know that inference on your part would only make things worse.
Can honestly say that you could sit back and do nothing?
I am flawed.
I am angry.
Is it just me?
Or is the reality truly painted as such?
I need to turn the switch off for the sake of my sanity.
It will not be switched off for long.
It will be turned on again.
Someday… not too soon I hope.
Too much crying within such a small time frame is not good for my eyes.
God help me.
God help us all.

-Back to ‘normal’-

I recently watched ’13 going on 30’. It is a very sweet movie. Falls right smack in the middle of the chick-flick category. Heard this song quite a while ago on the radio but heard it again in the movie. I like the tune and part of the lyrics. :)

Liz Phair – Why Can’t I?

Get a load of me,
Get a load of you,
Walking down the street
And I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you,
When we're out at night,
Got a girlfriend
You say it isn't right,
And I've got someone waiting too.

The problem is, this is just the beginning
We're already wet and we're gonna go swimming

Chorus:
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
Its inevitable... it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me...
Why can't I breathe whenever i think about you

Isn't this the best part of breaking up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too

Its an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful?

Here we go we are at the beginning
we haven't fucked yet, but my head's spinning

Chorus:
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

I'd love for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
I'd love for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
For this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever talk about you

Chorus

whenever i think about you (x4)


To my peeps from 1a9 2002/ 2a8 2003:
This Saturday at Siya’s place again!
Mahjong orgy once more!
Hua Xian Zi *driiing - driiing*
Wooohoooo~
See you guys there! :)
Can’t wait!

Phew! Tired liao… Kor kor’s P.O.P. is in the evening!
I wonder what I shall/should/will wear…
-rubs head-

Cheers! ^-^

I am tired and having a headache.
I am angry with someone. Actually some people.
To them I sincerly say:
FUCK YOU AND THE SHIPS YOU SAIL ON!
GO FUCK YOURSELF UP A TREE!

Headless chicken during CNY 2005

We are the music makers and we are the dreamers of dreams...
--Arthur O'Shaughnessy

Woohooo!!!!
Man! I am bushed xia! (Bushed = tired = wasted in a good way ;p)

Amendment:
The opening kick that with the power to K.O., is not a slamming kick but a reverse high turning kick. I still love slamming kicks though. :D

Could not sleep on Wednesday night, mainly due to my extreme anticipation of the day’s event(s).
Toss and turn and turn and toss till the breaking of daylight. Geez~ But, it’s not to say that it was not for a good cause. I had a wonderful day and it was all thanks to my friends. ^-^

I was supposed to meet Alfred, Elaine, Jared and Hui Fen at the Kovan MRT station at 10am; Fulin would meet us at Plaza Singaura. (Key word: supposed)
Alfred messaged me at 9.30am odd telling me that he was already at the station. O.O Naturally I was shocked, then again this sort of behavior is not wholly unexpected from him. Haha
–dodges for cover from Alfred’s rifle-
The rest were kinda late and I was the second to reach. Mainly thanks to that sms from Alfred. I practically flew from home lor~
When we finally reached Plaza Singapura, the first order of business was to buy the tickets for the movie: Constantine. (More on that later.)
That was followed by lunch at Long John Silver, where I repeated history, so to speak, and toppled my drink. (The last time that happened was when I was at BK after the grading…remember?) The clumsy me comes back with a vengeance! o.O’’’
When we finally finished with the food, we made our way to the 7th floor to get ourselves prepared for the movie. The deal with Jared was that he would pay for all the food only if we could finish all the stuff that was bought. 2 Sugar pop corn + 2 boxes of Salt pop corn + 3big cups of Coke + 1 cup of Spirte were purchased and brought into the cinema to be consumed. Unfortunately, we did not manage to meet the requirements of the deal, so we went dutch with the paying of the snacks. Honestly, I have never eaten so much within one movie sitting. *bleah* Next time round, we must remember not to buy so much… then Jared will have to pay…-evil laughter-

Once the movie was over, we made our way to Ngee Ann City to our destination of Kinukoniya. When we got there, 80% of the building was sealed off from the general public; so obviously, the bookshop would not have been open. Who would have known that the place would be closed off as such?! Since the place was off limits to us, we made for Borders, but for some reason, Jared did not want to go there, so we parted ways at the entrance to Borders. Alfred got his WW2 book; we walked around and headed back for PS to play arcade games.

We initially decided that the Istana was going to be one of the places which we would drop by, since it was open today. One look at the queue, which went all the way to the outside of PS, and we threw that idea out the window. I even took pictures of how long the queue was!

The arcade was crawling with people when we went there. Alfred is a sniper maniac! Elaine and Hui Fen should not be allowed to drive on the roads! Why? They both won in Daytona! Speeding not allowed in Singapore ah~ hahahaha

We walked around quite a bit before deciding to go our separate ways. From there I caught a bus to Uncle Sunny’s house for a family gathering. Hung out with my cousins and ate dinner there. Food! Food! Food! More food! *buuuurrp!* Oppz! Excuse me. I wonder how many kilos I will put on during this period…I wonder how much I have to do to get rid of the extra weight. Oh gosh~

I brought the camera out especially for the outing with my PLK CC TKD friends, as did Fulin. We went nuts taking photos. Hahaha…see something nice – SNAP! Walking pass somewhere – SNAP! Outside PS – SNAP! SNAP! SNAP! SNAP! Buah hahahha~ I will try and get the photos online asap. :) (Key word: Try – 56K is very slow -_-;;; Paiseh…)

Back to Constantine!
I can’t believe that Keanu Reeves is 40 this year! O.o Argh~ All along I thought he was in his early 30’s. He is still drool worthy and can rock my world any time. –migumi laughter- He never fails to take my breath away *sigh* -gets that dreamy look-
I had doubts about watching the movie at first because of the content of the story, but after much praying and good reviews from friends and the newspaper, I decided to go ahead with the show.
Rachel Weisz was also another draw for me to watch the film. I have seen her in many roles thus far and she is one of my favorite actresses.
I went into the cinema with an open mind and was not let down by either the storyline or the actors or the effects. It was rather cool to see how Hollywood depicts hell and other aspects of good and evil. I must say that who ever came up with the plot has one hack of an imagination.
The plot revolves around John Constantine (Keanu) –gets that dreamy look-…*sigh* … Ahem! John Constantine…*sigh*… and his quest to buy his way into heaven after having experienced hell for 2 minutes when he committed suicide at a young age. He can see what normal people can’t and he has knowledge that can certainly kill.
Angela (Rachel) is a cop whose twin sister has apparently committed suicide and she also happens to be the key to a diabolical plot.
Things go out of hand and the balance is broken.
People die and demons get sent back to hell.
Thing explode here and there.
Shocks are thrown in at appropriate times.
Anti-climaxes abound.

I enjoyed the movie. I would love to buy the VCD when it comes out but I don think that I will be able to get it pass the front door. See it if you can, it requires the darkness and ambience of the theatre to achieve the mood. I give it 4 out of 5 ticks. Keanu gets 10 licks.
-migumi laughter-

Today, I accompanied Pauline and Jason to the supermarket to buy groceries for Pauline’s steamboat night. It shall take place tomorrow evening.
We went Hougang Point – Festival Market to buy the stuff. Filled the shopping cart to the brim with: fish balls, sotong balls, crabmeat balls, prawn balls, vegetables, etc. Basically imagine everything one could eat at a steamboat dinner, and that would be what we bought.
–chuckles-
We bought so much that we ended up taking a cab back to Pau’s place. Once upstairs, the food stuff got put away in record time. Then we proceeded to Pau’s room to play with her computer and new piano! It is a work of technological art. The sounds that it makes are out of this world. :)
Pau has a very squeaky-creaky bed. Shift a bit only it will make sound. Mah Chum like that scene in “Shakespeare in Love” hahaha…
Hung out till about 5.15pm odd before leaving for home. Pau and Jason went to J8 to watch Constantine. I could not go because TKM said “N.O.” Oh well~

I wonder why Yingz keeps bumping into *chooff! chooff!* I would really love to see how *chooff! chooff!* looks like now, seeing that I have not seen *chooff! chooff!* in more than two years. Is God trying to tell me something? Aiyo, headache ah!

Oh yeah! I have to download Real player… my computer doesn’t have it… aiyo, more headache ah!

My brother’s moving out soon. I will miss having him around the house and bossing me around. As much as I profess to being irritated by his behavior, it was what I grew u with and old habits die hard. I think I will go stay with him during the weekends. Muah ahahahha…

I shall get on my headless chicken tomorrow. (Pun not intended) There is much running around to do. From Mr. Chow’s house to Karen’s home and finally to Pau’s place. The joy of the Lord is my strength! Wooohooo~

Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out Lyrics

So if you're lonely
You know I'm here waiting for you
I'm just a cross-hair
I'm just a shot away from you
And if you leave here
You leave me broken, shattered I lie
I'm just a cross-hair
I'm just a shot, then we can die

I know I won't be leaving here with you

I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say... take me out

I stay, you don't show
Don't move, time is slow
I say... take me out

I say don't you know
You say you don't go
I say... take me out

If I move, this could die
If eyes move, this could die
I want you... to take me out

I know I won't be leaving here (with you)
I know I won't be leaving here
I know I won't be leaving here (with you)
I know I won't be leaving here with you

I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say... take me out

If I wane, this could die
If I wait, this could die
I want you... to take me out

If I move, this could die
If eyes move, this could die
Come on... take me out

I know I won't be leaving here (with you)
I know I won't be leaving here
I know I won't be leaving here (with you)
I know I won't be leaving here with you

Have been looking for this song ever since I watched Electrico do a cover of the song! (Yes, I know it has been a long time, but I also have a lousy memory -.-;;;) Electrico and the song totally rock! Right Alfred?!

Yang Mui ah!
I haven started studying yet….siao liao…ok…I think I study for the UOL exams lah~…just try my best for the mocks…bor bian liao…jiat lut! Even more headache ah!

2a8 2003/ 1a9 2002 peeps!
15th Feb, meet at Kovan MRT station bus stop opposite Heartland Mall at 12 noon. Don’t be late!

Fingers getting tired… O.o’’’ Brain shutting down liao…
Cheers!
^-^

Cu yi 2005

Love is like a butterfly, hold it too tight, it'll crush, hold it too loose, it'll fly
--Unknown

First day of CNY is upon us all.
I bet you collection of ang pows is more than mine. Haha.

This year saw a change in the routine of visiting relatives.
Usually I go visit my mum’s mum (ala wai puo) first. But since Daddy had to work early morning, TKM + Kor + me went to visit Grandma, Auntie Irene, Third Grand Aunt and Grandpa. In that order.

Grandma was very happy to see us and her memory was in good shape today, nice start to the New Year don u think?
Auntie Irene’s health is better and God is using her to do marvelous things for His kingdom. Her testimony is truly ‘wow’. God has anointed her and I believe she shall do even more ‘hwah’ things for His children. :) It was wonderful to see her and Auntie Iris after such a long time. Auntie Iris has slimmed down a lot since the last time I saw her. Oh her cooking is gooood~ Ate my first lunch at their house.

Second lunch took place at Third Grand Aunt’s (aka Sa Lau Sim aka SLS) place. Curry*Mmmmm* + Pig stomach soup*sluuuuurp* = FULL and very satisfied.
She is one hack of a chief. If only I could cook like her, I would be able to start my own restaurant. Buah hahaha…
The visit to Grandpa was brisk, din really get the opportunity to talk long long to him coz there was a huge traffic jam in All Saints’ Home and we had to rush home to pick up our parents to go to our final location for the day. It’s nice to know that I can still talk to Grandpa when I am at home, or anywhere else for that matter :)

My third and final lunch took place at my Wai Puo’s house. We dropped off TKM at the house and Mum + Dad jumped aboard for the ride to Marine Parade. Most of my cousins went to visit my WP in the morning and we reached in the early afternoon, so most of them were gone by the time we got to our destination. Oh well~ Every year, my family goes over to eat lunch, so this year was no different. By the time my brother and I were finished with our *buuuuurp* (excuse me -.-’’’) lunch, we could hardly move. I can’t believe we still managed to eat some of the CNY goodies at the house! Kor kor really loves ba po (ala ba kua ala sliced BBQ pork), he eat until I thought that he was going to finish the whole box. Heh~
What does one do when one is totally stuffed and not ready to go home? Sit around and chat of course! So that is just what my family did for the next few hours before it was time to haul our butts back home. XP

Auntie Kiuo and family were visiting at our home when we got back. So sat we our butts down and talked with them. :) Jeslyn has grown very tall and she will definitely be taller than me in time to come. After all, she is only 16 this year. Still got another 2-4 odd years before she stops the skyward growth.
Shout out to Jeslyn:
STOP GROWING UPWARDS!!!!!

Caryn’s family just left. We sure had a good time laughing at the carious jokes and programmes that were on the tube…heh

Tomorrow is going to be a blast…got to go now~

Happy Chinese New Year 2005!!!!

Nonviolence is about speaking the whole complicated truth, the truth of our rage, the truth of our longing, the truth of our tears and our laughter, the truth of our smallest fears and our grandest dreams
--Pam McAllister

Happy Rooster/Chicken/Cock/Hen Chinese New Year to everyone!
May you receive bags full of ang pows! :D
After which you may proceed to the nearest S³W counter and make a generous donation to: Save Sharon’s Shrinking Wallet.
Donations may be made in cash, cheque or kind. Cash is preferred.
Your money will be going to a good cause. The receiver will treat you to H²O at the nearest water cooler. XD
But seriously, have a great time visiting your relatives &/ friends and bring back lots of stories to tell me. ^-^

Just came back from reunion dinner with my family. We went to LKH to visit and eat with grandmamma.
The food was gooood~ Eat until almost can not walk. Ate 3 (count that 1-2-3) bowls of sharks-fin soup. Hmmm… nice~ There were 7 of us in total, but we still had a lot of food leftover so have to ta bao home. *burp* Opppz sorry. o.o’’’
TKM is now cooking curry and mixed vegetable for the mandatory 3 day period…*sluuuurp!* I love her curry. It’s the absolute bestest! :D Don’t believe me? Come my house and try! But den there might not be any left for you to taste test… buah hahaha
Hope your reunion dinner was just as good as mine. :)

Before we went to LKH, I made a run for Junction 8 to do some last minute shopping. I have been eyeing a particular blouse form Bossini. A white blouse that has Peonies (aka Mu Dan Hua) printed on the shoulder and partial centre. It is very sweet, but the sad thing is that the outlet at J8 does not have it.
Actually the main reason I made that run to J8 was for Grace’s sake. She asked me to help her with her last minute shopping for CNY coz she did not have time to do her CNY shopping. Well, she got to buy her halter and shawl, so I am happy for her. :)
While waiting for her to arrive, I took my time to look around and rekkie for the clothes both she and I had in mind. I wondered into Comic Connection. Ended up buying two comic books. Ladida~
At the end of the mad rush at J8, she got her stuff and I got stuff which I did not think I would be able to get.
Ran into Winnie and her friend on the bus home, Singapore is so small. ;) Also took the same bus as Ms Koh’s brother. I was wondering how come the guy standing next to me was so familiar. Then when we got off at the same bus stop, it hit me. He has put on a lot of weight since last I saw him. Or maybe it’s just my eyes.

Talking about my eyes, they are giving me problem again. I can’t see as well as before. I fear that I might go blond one day and sight is very important to me. Not everyone is that good where they can spar without looking at their opponent. You try hitting someone in the dark and tell me how effective you are… but I digress… I squint more often now in order to get a good look at the things around me. And at the end of the day, my eyes hurt. Oh gosh~

Yang Mui,
When do you want to start studying? My dad just commented that I am far too free o.O I think he is catching on to my scheme…Haha… which subject you plan on starting out with? Me thinks mine Statistics, Mathematics, Economics, Sociology and IBM need help. Oh crap! That’s everything! Argh~ Hahaha

Alfred! Wow! Your poetry is good! Keep it up man! :) Hope to see more creative works from you in the future. Use your gift well. With great power comes great responsibility. Muah ahahahaha

Hey Ivan!
How does it feel to breathe the free air? Albeit for a few days… Heh~ Is your cough gone? I wanna see your hair do! We must go out when you are free! I choop!

2a8 2003/ 1a9 2002 peeps:
Meet at Kovan MRT station at 12 noon on the 15th of Feb.
Be there! I know taekwondo!
15th Feb!
12 noon!
Kovan MRT station!
Can’t wait to see you all :D
-puts right/left pinky to mouth-
Mahjong/ PS2 here we come!!!!
-evil grinz-

To all:
Happy Chinese *cock-a-doodle-do* New Year!
-hums Old MacDonald-
Gong Xi Fa Cai!
Giong He Huak Cai!
Gong Hay Fut Choy!
*Yi-yai-yi-yai-ooohh*

To a prosperous New Year!
-takes a deep breath-
CHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*pant* *pant*
^-^

Nose dripping and heavy bags *ouff*

Think impossible and dreams get discarded, projects get abandoned, and hope for wellness is torpedoed. But let someone yell the words It's possible, and resources we hadn't been aware of come rushing in to assist us in our quest.
--Greg Anderson

End of the day: It is time to type!

Morning: went online to download games for TKM to play. Had a ‘meeting’ with Karen, Jill and Yong Jet. It was there that I learned that only 5 people or so are going for the visiting thing on Saturday...can’t wait all the same :)

Afternoon: went to Heartland mall ala Hougang South to buy from NTUC. We have to stock up for the Chinese New Year period coz I don think we will going out…then again, TKM found out that NTUC will be open on the second day of Chinese New Year. Met with Jared at the bus stop. He was in the area coz he also went to NTUC to buy his snacks… he was eyeing the games at the shops. PS2 games and what not for computers… –migumi laughter-
From Central, TKM and I hopped on the 113 and made for PLMGS (Primary).
Ran into Gui Mei while we were there. She is teaching P4. Apparently she has to do some relieve teaching before she goes into NIE.
–scratches head in thought-
Saw some of my teachers and grabbed some food to eat while I was in the canteen waiting for TKM to pick up her stuff. The canteen vendor, actually two of them, thought that I was from the secondary school. I quote, the second store auntie:
“Are you in sec one or sec two? I have never seen you before…”
Hwah cawz! Make my day xia!!!! XD
Carried all the goods home and man! Were they heavy! Argh~
Fell into bed after my bath. So shiok to sleep. Ahhh~
Dinner was good today, for some weird reason, I ate more than usual. Hmm…must be the good food. –chuckles-

Looking forward to tomorrow! Will be eating reunion dinner with my grandma ^-^. Have to ask Daddy if I can bring the camera along to take photos! Haven seen her in a while, really miss her. Have to make time to go visit her more often. *sigh*

3 days ago, Yong Jet sent me a clip featuring the Korean Tigers. They are the Korean Taekwondo national team. Damn are they good! The video is very ‘hwah’ if you know what I mean… it shows them doing a variation of kicks and sparing against opponents in international competitions. I think that Korea has a lot of wood to spare, coz most of the time they were breaking boards. I watch how many times I still lose count of how many boards they broke within the first minute. The opening seconds of the video show a guy knocking out his opponent with just one slamming kick!!! Just ONE!!!! Yet another reason for slamming kick to be my favorite move. Woohooo~ :)
It is a very inspiring video and if I am able to attain even 1/3 of their prowless, I will be very happy.
THANK YOU YONG JET!

I am getting sick of hearing Taufik’s song: I dream.
Every time you turn on the radio, you hear his song, his song, his song, his song and more of his song. (Note: Singular. They keep playing the same song!) I give him props for being that good to win the first Singapore Idol title and being professional about it but I think that media (read: Media Corp) is going overboard with the whole promotion scheme. Not that I think that more air play is not good for him. I guess you could say that I am not against him, I just against the idea of the media making me sick of his music when they are trying to make him popular. It is counter productive to keep playing his MTV whenever there is a break between shows, no matter what the time slot. Can really make you go *bleah*

Alamak~ Yang Mui’s blog entry just reminded me about the looming mocks…*wah* I don feel like studying…but I have to study…*wah*

Sneezing the morning is not a fun thing to do when one has so many places to go and so many things to do… My nose was dripping the whole morning and my left eye went from twitching to tearing… those elements added to the fact that I was out of the house and on the street in public constantly sniffing away made it look more like I was crying. O.o For whom or what I also donno …hahahahaha

Ok…must go do my picture site!
Thanks to Joshy Kor, Adelyn, Siya, Ticha for the sites… did I miss out anyone?
-holds up white flag-
Sorry ah~

Milk anyone?
Cheers! ^-^

Bethel AOG member

Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
--Unknown

Finally! After being in the church for 20 years, and being baptized there and what not, I am now an official member of Bethel Assembly of God. :)
Can’t believe I had to wait that long before I am considered a member of the church. All along I thought that I was an automatic member of the church since I was baptized there and grew up there…oh well…now that I am a member, I will have to attend the AGMs and the possible EOGMs that will take place in the future…hmm… now I will have to start thinking of ways to get out of going…buah ahahhaha…Time to get creative! –evil grinz-

So sad, today is the last training before CNY and i have to wait till the 16th for my next training session... confirm will go through withdrawal symptoms ...-feels headache coming on-
I did not get to see Jared the whole of last week for training. I tot what happened to him. Then I met him online and I found out: During his expedition round Singapore in a kayak with his friends, he hurt his back (again) and wound up in the hospital for 3 days. When he got home from the hospital, he slept for another 3 days. No wonder… Den today when he came for training, he toopid toopid go and slam himself against the wall O.O I really hope is back is ok…I hope his brain is also ok…

Whole of next week no school! Whoopdido~ :D

Will be visiting PLMGPS with TKM tomorrow to do a pick-up just specially for CNY…heh~ I wonder how my teachers are. I wonder what they think of the new generation. I wonder… I wonder… aiya~ can find out tomorrow lah! Haha

I had considered learning how to put pictures u on my blogsite, then again, after much consideration, since my site has been up so long without pictures; I guess I will keep it that way. In line with the theme of arty-farty-ness without pictures, of course :)
As such, I am in the process of looking for a good site to keep images (ala make photo album), but everywhere I look I keep running into problems. I have now got an account with yahoo. Unfortunately, there is a very small amount space which I can use, so the search continues… anyone wanna help me?

^-^

Kiddy Grade

We grow great by dreams ... Some of us let these great dreams die, but others nourish and protect them; nurse them through bad days till they [flourish]; bring them to the sunshine and light, which comes always to those who sincerely hope that their dreams will come true.
--Woodrow Wilson

I missed the debut of Kiddy Grade on Thursday night due to THE ASSHOLES WHO MAKE VIRUSES! MAY THEY ALL BURN IN HELL!!!!! … So I decided to make time to catch the second episode on Friday night.

I found myself wondering what the story was all about and trying to get rid of all my previous assumptions of the anime. Someone, I can’t remember who, told me that the anime was about vampires and robots and monsters and what not. As such, I switched on the television expecting to see fangs and the usual blood flying all over the place thing (ala Hellsing) ... you can guess how o.O was my reaction when I saw the main character whip out lipstick, put it on and proceed to smashing through concrete.
If that was not enough, very skimpy customs (note: very), weird hair colours and funny names got thrown in (eg. Verda, Éclair, etc). By that time, I collected all my initial thoughts of the anime and threw them out the window into the long kang down stairs. The only thing my ‘informant’ was correct about was the robot characteristic.
The robots in the anime, are much like those in the Gundam series. I miss Gundam Wing… *sigh~*… -gets dreamy look thinking about Heero- … Ahem! As I was saying, the robots bare a resemblance to those gundams but they honesty can’t hold a candle to the real thing. -migumi laughter-
I supposed the anime, being a cult one, was created more for the male race than the female one because the bulk of the cast is made up of very bosomy female characters running all over the place in the outfits which I mentioned earlier. I suppose Yong Jet will be very happy with the series… it’s a good replacement for Hellsing. He’s going through Celeste Victoria withdrawal lah~ Buah hahahahaha! XP

Though I still do not really understand the storyline, I think I might continue watching the anime just to try and understand it and maybe pick up a few more drawing techniques…heh~

Spent most of the morning clearing up the table…very messy…now? Its less messy…still got more cleaning to do, but since the main thing has been taken care of I guess I can take my time to get the rest of the stuff done. -chuckles-

ade: "Thanks. Anyway, forgot to call you, but i reminded siya abt it."
Your most welcome :) Yarsh, i asked her if you called her....at least now she knows that you are still breathing...hahahaha

2a8 2003/1a9 2002 peeps:
Change of time!
Meet at 12pm at Siya's house!
Noon! 12pm! Noon! 12pm!
15th Feb.! Noon!

jia:"think can make it lah.. 15 feb.. XD wat time though?"
Yeah! :) OK... We go her place from 12pm onwards. That ok with you? Oh yeah...can you bring some PS2 games? Siya got a PS2 liao but she said that she don have many games...I bringing also :) So that means that, other than mahjong we got other things to do:) PS2 orgy... i like~ You all still remember how to get there?

yangmui: "my internet's alright..i think..and i thought i was the only one that calls him uncle ting?..lalala~"
You were the only one...i kanna chuan ruan dao, dat's why i also call him uncle ting...buah ahahhahaha... yes, before i forget, STUDY AH!!!! good enough? Haha

To all SRJCians:
Anyone intersted in going back to visit on CNY's eve?

To more energy for cleaning up the house,
Cheers! ^-^

Satisfaction...ahhhhh

All people dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their mind, wake in the morning to find that it was vanity. But the dreamers of the day are dangerous people, for they dream their dreams with open eyes, and make them come true.
--T.E. Lawrence (AKA Lawrence of Arabia)

Adeline:
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!!
Time to join me in the ‘limbo’ age! :P Have a great day ya?
–great big hugz-

2a8 2003/ 1a9 2002 peeps,
Remember to reserve 15th Feb for Siya’s house ah!

Yang Mui!
Your internet ok yet? Or do you have to go to school to use the computer? O.o

Me, myself and I, stayed up till about 2am, yesterday night, all for the sake getting my sociology essay done. Today is not the deadline, but the alternative to handing it up today would be to trudge down to S.I.M. just to give it to Dr. Wong. And seeing that I do not have lessons for the whole of next week, what option do you think I choose?
There is a great sense of satisfaction when one gets the assignments done on time. Even more ‘oomph!’ when the assignment is completed way before the deadline. Then again, the slacker in me has the ability to convince the mugger in me to procrastinate. *Bad Slacker! Bad Slacker!* All the same, I am happy that I finished my essay and that I don’t have to go to school on Monday… Woohooo~

Add sleeping late to a getting nasty wake-up call and the result is Sharon ending up at the school compound with glorified panda eyes. My sense of smell was unusually keyed-up today. The moment I stepped into the cafeteria, the smell of ‘bleah-ness’ assailed my nostrils. Damn! It was really bao wu man! Smell already feel like puking xia~ Needing my morning drink as I did, I made a beeline for the drinks store and flew out the glass doors.

Today was the last official lecture for Economics with Uncle Ting. First time I actually stayed awake for more than 75% of the lecture. Heh~ The whole lecture was spent doing revision of micro economics. Yvonne did the I.I. thing and joined our lecture for the day….she made the lecture more interesting…and played a part in keeping me awake. I am surprise that I remember most of the stuff that Mr. Ting went through…have to revise on my own to make sure I retain the information though~
After the lecture, Shi Min, Yvonne, Long Jie and I went to Heartland Mall to go check out some stuff. I wanted to buy another blouse for Chinese New Year, but alas, none of the shops had anything which I felt was up to standard. If it’s not meant to be, then … haiya! Anyway I save money… can spend on other things! Kakakakaka…

Mocks are coming...
Revision shall start! o.O
Soon! O.o
Soon! ;P
Soon! XP
Buah hahahaha~

Cheers, you all! Cheers! ^-^

Opening of the flood gate

I don't know whether the world is full of smart men bluffing or imbeciles who mean it.
--Morrie Brickman

I had a horrible night.
Waking up was kind of a blessing although I did not get enough sleep.
Here’s why I had a horrible night:
- The computer kanna virus.
- I had a dream within a dream, and it was a nightmare.
- I got bitten by mosquitoes the whole night. Now my legs and arms are full of red bumps. ArGh~ Bloody itchy!
When the computer got the virus, I did not have antivirus software, so I had to go and download from the internet. The crappy thing is that I had to wait for 2 hours for the bloody thing to load. So half and hour into the download, I gave up coz it was too late and I spent the rest of the time praying that the virus would not come back again. I had other antivirus stuff done before the 2 hour download.
The virus problem got me VERY worked up. The floodgates were open and the foul-mouthed Sharon reared her ugly head. Ask Parveen, Sheena or Yong Jet. Yong Jet knows how bad the foulness was. Mainly due to the fact that I was talking to him most of the time and he was also doing he darnest to irritate me and trying to help me at the same time with the virus scanning stuff. Resulting in his getting the bulk of my swearing…his fault for making me more angry ah~
It got so bad that I changed my MSN nick:
KILL THE ASSHOLES WHO MAKE VIRUSES! MAY THEY ALL BURN IN HELL!
Really suits my current xing qing. But its kinda tame compared the previous one I had while the flood gates were open F*** was the main word in the whole nick…haha
I apologize for being so vulgar last night people. Thanks to Yong Jet and Parveen for trying to help with the situation.
The nice thing that started my morning was the conversation I had with Ying ying. Talking to her made my outlook on the day a little better than what I had expected it to be. Thanks Yingz! :D
Now with the fact that I haven had enough sleep =.= I have to go school for the stats class and try my best to follow what Mrs. Meena is talking about and so on so forth. I haven even done my assignment for her class and Dr. Wong’s. I think I’ll just screw it and not do the assignments…den again, do I have the heart to do so?

2a82003/1a92002 People,
Keep the 15th of Feb. free! We are aiming to meet up on that day. MAHJONG! MAHJONG! MAHJONG! MAHJONG!
Let me know arh~ You know my number. SMS/Call me! Or leave a message on the tag board. I will be waiting…

Chinese New Year visit to Siya's

It's not enough to have a dream, Unless you're willing to pursue it. It's not enough to know what's right, Unless you're strong enough to do it. It's not enough to learn the truth, Unless you also learn to live it. It's not enough to reach for love, Unless you care enough to give it Men who are resolved to find a way for themselves will always find opportunities enough; and if they do not find them, they will make them.
--Samuel Smiles

Today was the last day for my double training before the one month SIM TKD break. The break will be from 7th Feb to 7th March…but I will be continuing my training at the Paya Lebar-Kovan CC coz I need the exercise…heh~ apart from that I can’t live without my weekly bouts of empowerment…heh…more on that another time. :D

Calling all 2a8 2003 people!
We are going to gather at Siya’s place for a mahjong orgy! Can you make it? Please let me know when you will be free. We are aiming for 15th Feb (Tuesday).
You know my number. Call/Sms me!

I HATE VIRUSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK! Have to go tape Hellsing!
Last episode…so sad~

Brrr...and Ou!

"What we do in life: echoes an eternity." - Gladiator

Monday's IBM class was very cold.
Read that: C-O-L-D.
Yang Mui and I were sitting directly under the air-con duct and quite literally froze our butts off. First time I see Yang Mui put her jacket on. Haha… I, on the other hand, had not jacket to put on, and even wearing two layers of shirts and after half an hour of the lecture, my left arm was ready for the cold-cuts section of Cold Storage. Shesh~

Still trying to find some sense of what used to be the computer I knew. There are things which I miss about the old PC but I know that I can do without them so I look for new things to dump into the CPU…-migumi laughter- As long as I get my stuff done I will be happy lah~

The assignments for stats and sociology are due on Thursday and Friday respectively...crap! I haven done them yet....sociology assignment I have to write a proper essay outline first before I start writing the darn thing...what's more...Dr, Wong wants us to type the thing out so it will be easier for her to mark and stuff related to that but then I don have a printer…how to print out the essay? –pulls out hair- Oh maybe I should scrap doing the essay altogether…-pulls out more hair-

It’s late and I am still typing…oh gosh~

It hurts me to see my friends having problems with one another. It sucks that I can’t help as much as I’d like to. I try to be objective when listening to their problems but some how… I am human after all…fallible and with lots of flaws… darn!

Will say more later~